Before I Forget

Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday...

I don't know about you... but I am a major manga fan. My favourite manga is probably Fruits Basket. I'm hooked on it. I spent the remainder of my money on volumes 15, 16 and 17 (it was a 3 for the price of 2 offer - I couldn't miss it). I've actually searched the web for a decent explanation of the storyline but none of them really explain it very well. Here we go anyway.

The story focuses on the life of Tohru Honda, who is recently orphaned when her precious mum dies in a car accident. She gets taken in by the family of a boy in her class, Yuki Sohma, and accidently stumbles upon their family secret. Thirteen members of the Sohma family are possesed by the spirit of an animal from the Chinese Zodiac (thirteen because there is also a cat, which it explains about in the books). When one of them is tired out or hugged by a member of the opposite sex they transform into that animal.

How can I explain it in a couple of paragraphs? You have to read it to understand it. I actually cried in volume 6 aswell. There are a few unexpected twists in the story too which spices it up a bit.

Love it.

Once upon a time there lived a smart happy little girl called Maya. She had many friends and was getting very high grades at school. Her parents adored her. She lived with her Mum and Dad and her older brother. Her older brother enjoyed skateboarding and rock music and she looked up to him as her idol. Later on her parents had another little girl and they continued living their happy happy life all together as one big happy family.

One day her friend asked her if she wanted to go travelling, so now the little girl awaits the day where she can drive off into the sunset and have lots of fun adventures and live happily ever after.

The end.

Or how about this one.

Once upon a time there lived a smart girl who suffered from severe anxieties. Her name was Maya. She had friends but she enjoyed spending time alone as her friends always wanted to do things that she was too nervous to participate in. She did well at school but she had to see a counsellor about her anxiety "issues". Soon it became too much and she was drove to leaving school at 13. Her parents worried about her. She became very paranoid and her anxieties led her to developing OCD, which she had to see a special therapist about. Her brother later grew depressed and began self harming. She was unfortunate enough to walk in one time on him slicing his wrist open with a pair of scissors.

One day her friend asked her if she wanted to go travelling, so now the little girl awaits the day where she can drive into the sunset and leave this crazy world behind and hopefully, hopefully live happily ever after.

The end.

The sad part is that both stories are true. I get people say to me, including my boyfriend that the reason they like being with me is because I smile alot. I'm a happy person. Happiness is contagious. And I am a happy person. The second story is only focusing on the negatives but really, it's not as bad as it sounds. Mix that in with the first story and you have my life right there in writing. The good definitely make up for the bad.

Ever tried looking behind the smile?